hi..
at last! updating ny blog...hehek! i'm very bz nowadays...wif my work...study...n some commitements ;D
if ur asking...how's my life rite now...I HAVE NO LIFE!!! NO TIME FOR MYSELF....THE ONLY TIME I SPENT FOR MYSELF IS WHEN I'M SLEEPING... but not enough sleep...really tired... i'm really down rite now..wanna noe y...? read this...MAYBE you'll know y...
I dunno y...sekarang yana dah sensitive sgt2..i'll take everyting seriously. Yana letak harapan kat semua bende..
1) some1 told me, he wanna meet me...but actually i couldn't...but then i make my own initiative to tell my parents that i'm having discussion..then..in the end..that person told me that actually he/she has something else to do... was really damn dissapointed...so...terpakse pujok diri sendir..ikut my family...go fishing pond...that was not that bad ok...
2) again some1 told me wanna meet...but actually he/she was just pretending (mcm paham nye bbl lah kann..) then after i ask him/her...he/she said that.."taklah... (the person name) saje jer tny..tp (the person name) tawu yg yana tak boleh...sbb tu tny..." at that moment...tuhan jer yg tahu...sakit nyer ati...u wanna noe what he/she ask "yana marah eh?"..i said.."taklah...nak marah buat per...buat sakit ati jer.." padahal...hati dah bengkak sebengkak2nye...haish...
3) i was suppose to meet some1 this sunday...then suddenly was cancelled...because nk raye haji...bla..bla..bla...then nk meet on saturday...which is besok...but i dunnoe if i could make it or not...because my family is going to JB...kalau yana tak ikut..nnti asek yana jer tak ikut..yana tk tawu lah...giving up my hope...
so0o..starts from now..yana takkan letak harapan and will force muself not to...
walaumcm mane yana actually nk jmp punn org tuu...i really cannot take it...it really hurts..when ur looking forward to meet that person..then actually he/she was actually sort of play a joke on u.. tuhan jer yg tawu betaper sakit nyer hati yana...so0o skrg i'm teaching myself nt to depent on others so0o0o much...and hati yana skrg tgh mati...buat sementara...u wanna scold me or male me laugh..hati yana akan sentiase sakit...sbb "luke lama belum terubat..ditambah lagi dgn luke yg baru"...(mcm paham se bbl...tp mmg btul...)
s0o0o0 deep from my heart..i'm really sorry if any1 frm u guys...tersakit ati dgn ape yana ckp...coz i noe.. rite now..i just say wat i want..i dun care wat u feel..bcoz..i can't feel anything kecuali dgn kesakitan...its ur fault! u make me feel this way...dun blame me! i dun care wat u wanna say abt me!
"YOUR ATTITUDE TODAY TODAY REALLY MADE FURIOUS" SESUNGGUHNYE...YANA TAK FHM..APE YG DE BBL NIE..OKIE....? IF U READ THIS..I'M SO0O0 SORRY THAT I'M TELLING IT HERE...BUT I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING...COZ UR BZ WITH UR BELOVED FRENS....OKIE???
